Sunday, February 5, 2012

OH MY GOD, I JUST REALIZED---- I'M NOT PERFECT!

Last weekend on a date with my husband, I was on my second double-vodkie-seltzer-with-lemon when out of the blue, I realized something that actually made me gasp. My husband choked on his coffee (yeah, he drinks coffee with dinner, and surprisingly, no-- he is not an octogenarian) and asked me what was wrong. I struggled to get the words out, awkwardly blurting:

I-, I'm-, I'm not perfect!


It was a big surprise to me. It occurred to me that before my weight gain, when I was still aware of myself, I was too aware. Nit-picking everything, I was my own three-way mirror. Take, for example, my chin, specifically my profile. I'd say I wish I had a picture of it, to show you, but I really don't. Growing up, I hated it. Hated, hated, hated. It's a weak chin-- the end of it goes directly to my neck, no prominence whatsoever, the dream of a long, swan-like neck impossible. Even as a kid, I knew it made me look weird, mongoloid, even. No boy could ever love me. 

And how sad is that, to focus so much energy on hating something you can't fix, or at least without a few thousand dollars and a dude in scrubs with a knife? Something that possibly no one ever actually notices? I mean, no one ever made fun of it, I was never teased or called No-Chin. But I couldn't stand it, and no matter how I tried, I couldn't wish or pray it away.


I've been enjoying all these freedoms that I never knew I could; freedom of the constant 3-way mirror, and except for weighing myself and analyzing my diet, freedom of constant judgements about myself. When I realized I wasn't perfect, I realized I don't need to be. I feel so good actually achieving what I can, why should I even let an aspect of my person, something in my DNA, bother me?




Once my mother smiled at me and said, "You have my chin!" not knowing how much I disliked it, and shamefully, in that moment,
I resented her for it. 


As a woman, I think there must be something very special to having a daughter; it's this person that you can mold and assist and cultivate, most especially because you can empathize specifically with her. As someone's child, I think if it's the best thing you do in life, you should be a better version of your parents. I love my parents, but I'm not going to raise my children the same way I was raised, and I don't expect my children to raise theirs the same way either. Your kids should be able to take from you a clearer vision of the world. After all, you're around them the most (hopefully), and you know them intimately (hopefully). 

Last night the hubby and I were talking about our kids (the ones we don't have yet, I mean), and I was saying something about having a daughter. My husband comes from a very good-looking family, and his sister's kids (two of them girls) are all adorable, strong, and intelligent. I said, "God, I just hope my daughter doesn't have my chin!" I hope my daughter, if I end up having one, is a better version of me. Or completely different version of me, the one I've only dreamed of being, say the cheerleader or the lawyer or the Best Knitter Ever. But I take it back. I hope she does have my chin, my mother's chin, her mother's chin, whoever-this-chin-belongs-to's chin. It's with me for a reason. We can never be perfect. And perfection doesn't sound fun anyway.



Thursday, February 2, 2012

Easy Vegan Butternut Squash & Sweet Potato Soup




a pinch of what was fresh ginger, then grated and rolled like a super healthy tootsie roll and kept in my freezer looks like. Because who uses an entire root before it goes bad? (I RESPECT YOU IF YOU DOOOO)

it's cheating-- everything looks delicious when garnished with cinnamon sticks!!!

First and foremost, I feel the need to make a shout out to Vegan Lentil Soup from allrecipes.com (is it not one of the best sites ever??!), which inspired this considerably easier recipe. What I learned was, you don't need an immersion blender (it purees itself!)-- you just simmer it into OBLIVION! The squash and water alone create a wonderful base to which you can add savory (seriously, make that lentil soup!) or sweet (seriously, make this soup!) ingredients.

Soooooooooooooooooooooooooo every winter my wonderful restaurant gives a gallon of soup to The Peninsula School of Art of Door County. It's been clam chowder; a delicious concoction called "Country Black Bean" consisting of char-grilled pork chops, green pepper, corn, potatoes and black beans, and this year, my dear friends, I am honored to present you -and the people who attend the event- (vegan) (AND CREAMY!) Squash and Sweet Potato Bisque.

This is not an original (by which I mean: particularly creative) recipe. But it is SUPER EASY, and VEGAN! And hopefully it'll show up in a search engine (I can dream, can't I?)..

This recipe makes around 6-8 servings and takes around 90 minutes. 


You shall need:

- 2 medium butternut squash
-2 large sweet potatoes (shhhhh... you could use canned ones but they won't look anywhere as pretty and you'd better only use them if they're already in your cupboard)
- 1 can coconut milk (I used full-fat, but I don't want the meat-eaters to say it didn't hit the spot! You could probably sub lite coconut milk)
- 4-6 tablespoons Earth Balance (optional)
- 4-6 cups cold water
-ground or fresh ginger
- ground cinnamon
- a generous pinch kosher or sea salt
- crack black pepper

I used 2 medium-sized butternut squashes. Squashes? That seems wrong. Squash? (Like moose?!) It sounds brutal, but you're going to want to cut, gut, peel, and cube them. Please be careful. You could easily dismember yourself trying to trim a hearty squash of any kind; butternut is no exception. I used a serrated knife to cut, and chef's knife to chop/cube. Cut the squash, peel it (carefully-- they seem to relish flying gleefully into the trash can), and dice or cube into 1" chunks. We're looking for similar-sized pieces, as they will cook evenly. Whatever!

Once cubed, place in a 4-quart saucepan and pour enough cold water in pot to cover the pieces (I used 6 cups and it was just! enough, but more would have made for a watery bisque). Less is okay-- you can always add more. Put on medium heat and bring to a boil.

Once boiling, turn the heat down to low and and let it simmer away. It took my pot around 20 minutes to get to a boil, and after around 30 more minutes, it got all nice and mushy. I then added the coconut milk, and spices (see note) and let the mixture simmer for around 25 more minutes. 

When the squash was almost completely "pureed," I added my 2 peeled and diced sweet potatoes. They were al dente after around 10 minutes or so, but you can simmer then longer or shorter, depending on how big or small they are and done you want 'em.

AS FAR AS SEASONING GOES: You should really always season to taste until you know how you like things. This is a super subtle, but wonderfully satisfying soup. As I stated in the caption for the ginger, I grated and froze that shiznit, and what is pictured, I used twicefold. Fresh ginger would probably be a peeled ~1" chunk, grated, possibly less though!!. If you are using ground ginger, start with maybe a 1/2 tsp of ground ginger, and work in sprinkles from there. I did a sprinkle of cinnamon (maybe 1/4-1/2 t), a pretty healthy pinch of kosher salt (you'd be surprised at how much it needs it), and 1 healthy crack of black pepper. 

When the soup was done cooking, I folded in (or dunked in and kept stirring as the residual heat of the soup melted:) 4 tablespoons of Earth Balance, but you could use less, or none at all (or just garnish with a little slice of margarine and a drizzle of maple syrup or agave). Serve this with a nice leafy salad and some bread and call it a peasant's dinner. This soup also freezes quite nicely.



Sunday, January 22, 2012

The Zen of Eating

My lovely mother sent me a book this week, so I am currently reading: The Zen of Eating. The author, Ronna Kabatznick, who was the psychological consultant to Weight Watchers International for a little less than a decade, explains the relationship we have with suffering (the Buddha defines suffering as "a ravenous appetite, not just for food, but for peace and security") and how to deal with it (not to ignore it, and not to let it take over) through the Buddha's Four Noble Truths, and the Eightfold Path. Oh, and yeah, how it applies to us and food. 

I will hopefully bring a little more wisdom to the blawg table as I read... I'm only about 60 pages in, but I can tell already that it's going to be a great resource for me as I lose a few more pounds and work on maintaining-- without feeling like I'm depriving myself, and without going crazy and starting to lose myself by giving in to the temptations. I'm realizing, AGAIN, (because I already was starting to realize when I re-introduced processed foods, sloppy portions, etc.) that what I need --and she emphasizes the importance-- is to be mindful of food. We're lucky enough in this country to have enough food that all the choices we have and its incredible speediness, convenience, etc.; well, it makes it so that many of us are not mindful when we eat, causing us to forget where it comes from, forget how many calories we do and don't need, prefer large portions of horrifically processed foods to reasonable portions of whole, clean, satisfying food.... When you take in the beauty of food, appreciate how it came to be, when you think as you're eating it how good it is for you and how it's going to nourish you, it's very empowering. 




In these past couple days, I've stopped snacking, which is incredibly hard. (I don't think there's anything wrong with snacking, but when you're trying to lose a few pounds and re-establish your relationship with food + how it satisfies you, mindlessly munching extra calories most definitely doesn't fit in.) I hope I can stay strong, I think I can. I tell myself, You can eat that, but it's not going to make you happy. Another point in the book is that suffering (or hunger) will come and go. Always. For as long as you're alive. You can eat that snack and feel full, and feel disappointed in yourself, or you can not eat it, and be satisfied in knowing that you're in control. You'll be full again soon anyway. Desires arise and they pass away. Watch as they rise, let them pass away. ZEN BABY!


I want to lose another 10-15 pounds in the next few months, before I go shopping for summer clothes (WHAT AN EXCITING THOUGHT HOLY CRAP!). Vanity pounds, really. I honestly feel like I look great in clothes, and I love it, but I figure I've come all this way and I want a lean, fit body, and when I wear a bathing suit this summer, I want to feel crazy good. So it's back to where I was when I started this blog, following my own rules and figuring out how to be zen, and it's so fitting that this book came into my hands, because I really needed it. I love you, Mommy!


Also: I'm resolving to cook and jar my own beans. Those BPA-lined cans are probably not great for me, and fresh beans taste better. Time to get out the crock pot and make a few batches of garbanzos and black beans! Hopefully another recipe coming. I'm still learning the basics of vegan cooking so I ain't got no flair yet... Cheers!





"What boundless joy, to know there is no true happiness." 
- old Buddhist monk dude


Wednesday, January 18, 2012

Fill 'er Up! (your kitchen, that is)

I'm not a doctor, a nutritionist, or even terribly smart, but I did manage to lose a bunch of weight on my own, following completely logical rules. I've found that I lose and gain weight quite easily, so I have to be pretty militant, and found that I'm happiest and healthiest when I'm really disciplined (small, frequent, low-fat, vegan meals and exercise at least 4x per week). When I start to re-incorporate processed foods and (more than occasional serving of) alcohol into my diet is when I start to actually get depressed and disappointed in myself. 

You may be different. You may be able to be less diligent with the same results. And good for you. But what I've found, and as I've stated before, a lot of this is about having the right state of mind. Right before I lost the first 15lbs was the worst for me; I was depressed and cranky and couldn't figure out what I wasn't doing. Truthfully, what I wasn't doing was: Giving it a million percent. When you're on this journey, you have to have faith in what you're doing, you have to believe that all your hard work is going to pay off. You have to work for it, you have to picture yourself the way you want to be. Know that what you're doing is going to prolong your life and make it that much better. Don't give up. And if you mess up, gain a little back, get right back on. Never beat yourself up for something when you can use that energy to do some thinking and damage control. Write it out, make up your own rules, and stick to them. It is hard going out, or rather not going out, or having friends see you as a bummer because you only drink seltzer with lime while they pound Jager shots. Whatever. The way I see it, good for them for getting life figured out! But really, people probably won't give you much crap after you lose 20+lbs. They'll be blown away by how fantastic you look!


STAPLES FOR EATING HEALTHY AND LOSING WEIGHT

These are some suggestions of what I like to have in my house. Buy everything as minimally processed as possible (easiest way to do this is to find the package with the fewest amount of ingredients, and of course, very few if any preservatives), buy in bulk as it cuts down on costs for you and for packaging, and local is always best, even better than organic, because why? It helps the farmers and growers in your area. And chances are the small farmers in your area aren’t flying helicopters full of Agent Orange through your area…. Let’s hope…

 Also: you can check back on my previous posts as far as my rules for dieting changing your lifestyle so that you actually enjoy getting up in the morning, putting on hot new duds (I LOVE catching guys checking me out, after 4 or so years of no attention, it's pretty saweeet), and taking on the day... but as I recall:

Drink a TON of water, and put lemon or lime slices in it (fresh berries are yummy too!).

Avoid processed foods like The Plague-- this means making most of your own meals and guess what? It means eating a TON of fresh vegetables. (Processed foods just have more stuff your body has a hard time digesting. They are addicting, too, which is why so many of us can't imagine life without them.) This includes having some sort of snack with you wherever you go; keep some nuts or trail mix in your car or backpack or purse, pick up an apple, whatever. Even the organic, "healthy" whatever options are still manufactured at a plant, they're in a bag, and you don't need them.

Portion/ satiation. Eat half of what you think you want, wait 15 minutes, and eat the rest, or eat something small, like an apple. For me, dieting is like quitting smoking. It's really tough the first few days, and I'm ready to kill someone, and my poor husband wants to watch Anthony Bordain and I'm like ARE YOU SERIOUS? I CAN'T WATCH A TWINKIE BE DEEP-FRIED! But give me a few days and then I'm zen, baby! See what works for you, but definitely be aware of slowing down, if not stopping, the second you feel a little satisfied. A portion may be too much for you of something, and if 4 ounces of meat seems small, it's because you need to load up on veggies and grains. (Note: If you're exercising hardcore, you're going to need quite a few more calories. Just make sure to make good choices.)

Exercise. Duh. You don't have to go crazy, but you should find that working out is something that calms you and is a de-stresser. If it's not, find something that is. This summer I walked the SHIT out of country roads, listening to Kanye West, it was the best. Walking is one of the best things you can do to your body, but I don't know if it's the same when you're in a stuffy gym? I'm a fan of work-out DVDs because I prefer to sweat in private, but if you look forward to doing something, you'll do it more often. And once you see the changes in your body, you'll be amazed at how much you rely on working out for peace of mind.

Journal. Keep a record of what you eat for awhile (every single bite or nibble), and see what changes you could make. I kept a journal and then I was like, Eff this, I'll just eat everything healthy all the time and I won't have to write it all down. That worked for me. I also weigh myself every morning and note my weight so I can see if I'm gaining or losing. If my weight changes I note the behavioral or dietary differences, or if I ate a late dinner the night before, or drank more caffeine than normal the day before. Like I said, militant, but it works... for me at least!


MOVING ON.... FILL 'er UP:
PANTRY

* = absolutely essential! 

Rolled oats / quick oats -- breakfast!

Flaxseeds Whole, ground fresh, are best, but a couple tablespoons in your morning oatmeal will nix the need for gross fish oil pills, because they're full of omega-3s. It’s also great to have on hand for vegan baking.

All- natural peanut butter * (or almond, whatever your preference)

Olive oil *

Vegetable oil *

Brown rice * They have brown basmati and jasmine and those are as fragrant as they are delicious!
 
Dried beans * (buy lentils, they're incredibly good for you, are satisfying, and don't require soaking. I like to have dried chickpeas on hand in case I need garbanzo flour)

Canned beans * (my favorites are black beans –which are the best for you—, chickpeas—
great for salads, and for making hummus or falafel— and pintos –great for tacos or with rice. Cannelli beans are white kidney beans and they’re good for blending into sauces and soups to make for a creamy consistency, and are great rinsed and cold, in salads.)

Canned beets I say, “A.H.S.R.O.Y.P.” Always have something red on your plate. A few cherry tomatoes, some canned beets. It cheers up your plate and for me, it usually reminds me that I need to eat more veggies.

Rice cakes (plain) The processed item I can’t live without… yet. Great for pb&j, especially if you can’t have flour.

Whole grain pasta

Quinoa * IS A POWERHOUSE of nutrients. It contains, in its little unassuming grains, every necessary amino acid. It is chockful of protein. I feel bad that it has to travel so far to get here, but it’s worth the guilt. This stuff rules.

Popping corn (2 T vegetable oil, ¼ c popping corn, a medium sized pan and you’re on your way to a healthy treat. We use I Can’t Believe It’s Not Butter spray even though it’s AWFUL for you. Don’t go crazy with the popcorn salt though or you'll get all bloated.)

Raisins * (and other dried fruit, but raisins are the cheapest, usually. It wouldn’t be “Oatmeal with raisins” without these beauties. They’re great for when I don’t have any fresh fruit on hand. It’s the first thing I reach for when I need a little something to get me through staring at my husband’s junkfood while I’m ruminating about making something healthy and satisfying..)

Pasta Sauce

Salsa * (For eating on salads instead of dressing, or on top of eggs or in tacos, etc. Buy whatever your spice level preference.)

Tomato paste

Honey, agave, or maple syrup

Preserves

Low-fat granola for stirring into yogurt, or eating with milk, or making your own trail mix: a serving of granola (I love Bob’s Red Mill’s Low-Fat version), a serving of raisins, and if you feel it, a few nuts. So satisfying!

Almonds (raw and no skin for making milk, plain for snacking)

Cashews (raw, located at some supermarkets and health food stores)

In-shell nuts for mindless snacking –but try not to do that— I’m on a pistachio kick right now but peanuts do too. Make yourself do some work if you’re going to stare at the TV for 3 hours!

Pickles/Greek olives/ Pepperoncinis – I like to add chopped olives or pepperoncinis to salads, they add a little kick and I get my salty fix. Chopped olives are also great for putting on top of quinoa or whatever your grain instead of using table salt. They have a little bit of fat in them but they’re meaty and delicious. Whole baby dills are a great substitute for potato chips; when you need that salty crunch, they’re there for you, happy and willing to help!

Kosher salt and fresh black pepper Lez be adults everbody. Sea salt is better for you, but mos def the big granules require less salt for the same taste and a pepper grinder makes you look cool anyway.


‘FRIDGE

Almond milk * (make your own, dang it! It’s super easy. All you need is to soak some raw almonds overnight, drain ‘em the next day, blend with water, a little honey or maple syrup, strain through cheese cloth and you’re good!) I love a little almond milk with lunch or as a snack, a little creaminess that’s really satisfying.

if you buy Soy milk, make sure it’s organic, even though the term “organic” is quite quickly losing credibility…. Cow's milk is cruel to cows, it's not good for you, and can actually encourage osteoporosis! (Look it up!) Don't drink it. Soy has just as much calcium for no cholesterol, and seriously, no one's going to question the Chocolate Silk in yo' fridge. (The bottles of YooHoo, however? Wait, you drink yoohoo?) And really, they don't make vanilla flavored cow's milk! Vanilla soy or almond milk makes that healthy cereal just tolerable enough!

Fresh, local eggs Bring them to temperature by leaving them out for a bit. Boil up some water in a sauce pan, carefully put in eggs, boil for 9 minutes, and rinse under cold water to get the shells off easy. Perfect for a little protein on a salad, or as a snack. The terms "cage free" and "organic" are misleading and often the chickies are just as tortured. If you live anywhere, you should have access to local eggs. Figure it out.

Cheese if you MUST. BUT NO NO NO NO AMERICAN. Buy local, buy fresh. Use sparingly as a treat.

0% Fage Greek yogurt * This stuff is the BOMB. It’s like 23gr protein for like, no fat, and not too many calories. Warning: you have to be an adult when you eat it… it’s sour but it’s worth it because of its nutrient breakdown. I don’t eat the stuff too much anymore as I try to lean on the vegan side, but a little honey or agave, some of Bob’s Red Mill Low-Fat granola, and some berries, and I had enough energy to run to the moon. Don’t get suckered into the flavored kind; too many preservatives and really, when you’re making a life change like losing weight or eating healthy, give it 100% and make your taste buds change. I promise you, they will!

Soy sour cream A processed ingredient that I like to have on hand for blending with salsa and making a creamy vegan dressing. Mmmm! Also great for baked potatoes or low-fat vegan potato salad.

Tofu I go in phases of eating tofu. I much prefer my own, homemade seitan or bean-vital wheat gluten-sausage, but tofu is a great place to find protein. Try my vegan feta! Extra firm is great for sauteeing, silken is perfect for blending.

Tortillas They last a pretty long time and who doesn’t want tacos, like, anytime? Buy corn, it’s better for you, and you can bake some tortilla chips or have breakfast tacos or veggie tacos whenever you want!

Meat Don’t eat it. You don’t need it. It’s going to clog up your arteries and it’s hard on your body to digest. If you must, stick to lean cuts and eat only 4 oz portions, filling up your plate with veggies and maybe some whole grains. But try to avoid it— even before I decided to give up meat entirely, I would make it a game to see how many meals I could make that were vegan. I always felt insanely good after those meals!

Nutritional Yeast Seasoning Little cheese-y tasting flakes that are full of protein. It’s essential for making vegan cheese, and most seitan and veggie sausage recipes call for it. Still gotta try it on popcorn!

Speaking of making veggie sausages and seitan, you’d be lost without Vital Wheat Gluten, which can also be added to breads to make ‘em heartier.

Yeast, Whole wheat flour, and All-purpose (unbleached) Flour for making your own bread, if you’re so inclined.

Dried spices * My go-to favorites are cumin, thyme, dill, granulated garlic, oregano. Cinnamon, ginger, and curry powder have anti-inflammatory powers. The more you cook with any spices the more you see what you like.

Jarred minced garlic I’m one of those types that has a bulb of garlic that I never go to use until it’s already long gone. This stuff keeps forever, and a little goes a long way.

Veggie broth/ bouillon Necessary for seitan-making and hearty veggie soups. Get low-sodium ones though.

Tamari / soy sauce 

VEGETABLE CRISPER.. OR ON THE COUNTER, TO REMIND YOU TO EAT THEM!!:

Lettuce * I like red leaf a lot. It’s buttery-soft, it’s pretty, and it’s not too expensive. I don’t think it’s as good for you as, say, romaine, but if you load up your salad with other yummy veggies you should be okay. There are tons of other options, though, try 'em all!

Parsley / cilantro Nice to have on hand in case you want to make a little guacamole, great to add to soups and stews, or when you need to photograph a dish for your blog and the plate needs a little je ne sais quoi.

Celery Essential as a base for soups, I like to make rice dishes that start with sauteed onions and celery and beans and end with me eating them.

Avocados Go easy on ‘em, they’re loaded with fat, but when they’re cheap (in Wisconsin, at least) or when you need a little creamy fattiness on your salad or even a couple slices on the side of your rice and beans, they’ll satisfy you. And not just because they’re like the prettiest color ever.

Lemons A.H.L. ALWAYS HAVE LEMONS! When I was losing the bulk of my weight, I drank tons of water with lemon. As I mentioned in a previous blog, there’s some research touting how lemon oil can curb hunger pangs. Not to mention getting your vitamin C is always sexy!

Kale Can you say powerhouse? Kale is one of those things you will eat and poop and it will be the same. Which is gross, yeah, but can you imagine how wonderful it is for your insides? Like they’ve been gently loofah’d, probably!! (Wikipedia says that “Kale is very high in beta carotene, vitamin K, vitamin C, lutein, zeaxanthin, and reasonably rich in calcium. Kale, as with broccoli and other brassicas, contains sulforaphane (particularly when chopped or minced), a chemical with potent anti-cancer properties.[1] Boiling decreases the level of sulforaphane; however, steaming, microwaving, or stir frying do not result in significant loss.[2] Along with other brassica vegetables, kale is also a source of indole-3-carbinol, a chemical which boosts DNA repair in cells and appears to block the growth of cancer cells.[3][4] Kale is also a good source of carotenoids.[5]Bam!)
I like to tear off the leaves into a bowl, pour a little olive oil on top, and massage the oil into the leaves. (It’s called “Massaging Your Kale” which is the least you can do for the kale considering how meekly it loofahs your bowels.) Soften some chopped onions in a pan with a little olive oil, throw in some sliced mushrooms, cook the kale to tender, and serve with some rice and a little extra protein. Kale is hearty as hell, so be prepared to cook it quite a few minutes longer than spinach or other pathetically weak greens.

Onions I couldn’t live without red onions for my salads or white (or yellow) onions for soups and sauteeing. A.H.O.

Carrots

Potatoes Carrots and baby red potatoes are great to have for soups, carrots are great for juicing and for snacking. Stick to potatoes you don’t have to peel, like a tender yukon or sweet potato, both great for roasting or baking, peels and outer skins of things tend to have all the nutrients you need in them.

Cucumbers Slice ‘em, put a little salt if you must, and call it a snack.

Squash I love spaghetti squash. It’s so easy to make and it really sates the need for pasta. Butternut squash makes a yummy soup, and it’s good for you as well. Acorn squash, baked, with a little margarine and brown sugar is delicious too!

Mushrooms

Cherry tomatoes

Zucchini Great for grilling or sauteeing, good for soups as well. I love some grilled zucchini with fresh lemon squeezed on it, super satisfying.

Peppers Great for grilling or sauteeing

Spinach Don’t give Dole your money! Buy a bunch, pick off the leaves from the stems, put the leaves in your salad spinner, fill your salad spinner up with cold water, and let them soak for a bit so that any grit will rinse clean off. What do you mean, you don’t have a salad spinner????

Corn (frozen)  Soups, baby!! or rinse the frost off for taco salads!

Spinach (frozen) Soups, spaghetti, etc.

Broccoli Eat it fresh or eat it steamed, either way, it’s super good for you!

Bananas I have to even out my carbon footprint from not eating meat by eating bananas. They’re creamy, and a peanut butter slathered rice cake, slices of banana and a touch of honey…. PERFECTION.

Strawberries / berries (fresh or frozen) Great for your morning oatmeal, or whatever.

Apples * I note that apples are a staple because they’re year-round.

There is so much good food out there waiting for you. Don't be afraid to experiment. Cheers!



WISH LIST

Olive oil
Vegetable oil
Rolled oats / quick oats
All- natural peanut butter
Rice cakes (plain)
Brown rice
Whole grain pasta
Quinoa
Dried beans
Canned beets
Popping corn
Raisins
Pasta Sauce
Salsa
Tomato paste
Honey or maple syrup
Preserves
Low-fat granola
Almonds
Cashews
In-shell nuts
Pickles/Greek olives/ Pepperoncinis
Almond milk
Soy milk
Fresh, local eggs
Cheese
0% Fage Greek yogurt
Soy sour cream
Tofu
Meat (don’t do it)
Lettuce
Veggie broth/ bouillon
Jarred minced garlic
Dried spices
Flour
All-purpose
Yeast, Whole wheat flour, Unbleached All-purpose flour
Vital Wheat Gluten
Nutritional Yeast Seasoning
Parsley
Celery
Avocados
Lemons
Kale
Carrots
Cucumbers
Mushrooms
Onions
Potatoes
Cherry tomatoes
Zucchini
Peppers
Corn (frozen)
Spinach
Spinach (frozen)
Broccoli
Bananas
Strawberries / berries (fresh or frozen)
Apples

Monday, January 2, 2012

Vegan Bavarian Pretzel Rolls! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Vegan Bavarian Pretzel Rolls will AMAZE your family and friends, and try, if you can, not to gorge yourself on all 45.....  

This entry is dedicated to Nikki! I love you so much sister!

These look like a lot of work, but they're not that bad. Read the recipe through to make sure you know what you're doing, and you should be fine. Enjoy!


First things first:


You will need a large cutting board for kneading the dough (though you can flour your kitchen table if needed!) and the biggest bowl you've got in your kitchen arsenal for mixing and storing the dough. It wouldn't hurt to buy an extra extra-large bowl, but you can clean the same one out while the dough is resting, if needed.


The dough can be made a day in advance, though the rolls will taste best superphresh. Your call.


Clear out a space in your fridge for yo' bowl.
I use a 2 cup liquid measuring cup for the water, melting the margarine, and warming the milk. But if you prefer to do more dishes than less, do whatever you want.
Prepare your floured surface while yeast is foaming.
Make sure you have extra flour handy in case the dough isn't stiff enough, plus you'll want extra for dusting the surface on which you will be kneading your dough.


For the dough:


7 1/2 t active dry yeast
1 c + 2 c warm water
1 c packed brown sugar
1/2 c (one stick) margarine
1/2 c almond or soy milk  (I used sweetened and they turned out fine, so don't freak if that's all you have lying around, it'll do just fine)
11 + c all-purpose flour


To boil:


1/2 c baking soda
big ol' heavy-bottomed pasta pot
baking sheets
baking/cooking spray
slotted spoon




Here is the recipe as I know it, which will make 45+ rolls. The original recipe is 1/3 of this one (and will make around a dozen or so). Cut it in half or in thirds as you wish. You do the math though, I'm waaaaaaaaaay too lazy.


In a large bowl, dissolve the yeast in 1 cup of pretty warm (but not too hot, or you'll kill the yeast) water, and let sit until foamy. 


When foamy, add 1 cup of packed light brown sugar.


While that's sitting, in your liquid measuring cup, melt margarine in the microwave (careful, it may explode, so turn the power level down to medium, and nuke for around 45 seconds or so). Add milk, and return to the microwave for another 20 seconds to warm.


Add the milk-margarine mixture to bowl, add 2 more cups of warm water (you'll notice that the measuring cup is almost clean--you're welcome!) and stir with wooden spoon.




I make these rolls every day in my restaurant, so I'm at the point where I eyeball everything but the yeast.. You're going to add something like 12 cups of flour. I would say, measure the flour into a separate bowl, and add 85% of it, stirring with a wooden spoon until you can stir no more, adding flour until the dough is a shaggy mass. (If you're using a mixer, using dough hook at low speed, mix dough and add sprinkles of flour until ball clears the sides of the bowl.)


Turn it to your floured surface and keep kneading and adding sprinkles of flour until it's a smooth, around 4-6 minutes (around 3 or so with a dough hook and mixer). If it's a tad sticky, don't worry, it's fine.


Cover the dough with a clean, dry dishtowel or piece of wax paper and let it rest for 10 minutes. While it's resting, clean out the large bowl you just made the dough in or get another extra-large bowl, and oil and flour it (just spray all over the inside, add a few tablespoons of flour, and turn until the bowl is floured. I tap the leftover flour right on top of my dough ball). After the 10 minutes, put dough in bowl, cover with plastic wrap, and let rise in refrigerator until doubled in size, approx. 45 minutes.


I just let it hang out there until I need it, and what's cool is that if you don't need the 'fridge space, you can leave the dough in there for at least a day, punching it down when it starts getting sassy. Oh, and!!! if you wanted, you could make only part of the dough, and the dough will make more dough! Which is how you can get more than 45 rolls out of one batch! BREAD CAN BE SO BEAUTIFUL!




Alright, when you're ready, preheat your oven to 400 and get out your big pasta pot. Fill it three-quarters of the way full of water and set to boil. Add ~1/2 cup - 1cup of baking soda, but be warned: adding baking soda to boiling water may cause bubbling over and scalding and probably DEATH. If you add the soda right away you can avoid this. 


While oven and water are gettin' steamy, remove your dough from the refrigerator. Spray a baking sheet or three and form balls with the dough, grabbing golfball-sized pieces from the big ol' dough pile, pinching out air pockets and rolling them in your hands (crucial to giving rolls those lovely pretzel-y cracks!), and put 'em on the baking sheet, doing so until you have as many as you need. Though after you've tasted them, you will discover that you can never have enough...!




So! We're going to take our baking sheet right next to our pot of water, slotted spoon handy. Carefully drop 3-6 pieces of dough in the water and let them boil, turning once, for around 20-30 seconds (be warned: they do get soggy and gross, so stay focused!). My rolls tend to stick on me, so I make sure to spray a little more oil onto the pan while the rolls are in the water. Remove from water and repeat with remaining dough. When they're all done, sprinkle the glorious top of each with a pinch kosher salt or sea salt. (Note: I noticed that when you use kosher salt, the salt tends to dissolve into the roll, so the next day they just kind of taste like good bread. Using larger-crystals of salt might make their pretzeleyness last longer, though I don't expect they'll last long anyway.)


Bake each sheet for 12-15 minutes, rotating pan halfway. Let cool for as long as you can stand to not eat them, and serve warm. If sticking to pan, use a metal spatula to pry from pan. Freeze extras, which can be reheated at 350 degrees until warm, checking after 5 minutes. If they lose their salty tops after being frozen or over the next couple days, you can brush a little melted margarine on top and add a pinch more salt before you warm them in the oven. Enjoy! Long live cruelty-free cooking! Er, baking!


Update!
 For 12-15 rolls, here are your measurements (I couldn't find the original recipe, but I finally found my copy, so...)

1 1/3 c warm water
2 T warm milk
2 1/2 t active dry yeast
1/3 c light brown sugar
2 T melted margarine
4 c a-p flour

for boiling:
2 qt cold water
1/2 c baking soda 


Huzzah!

Tuesday, December 6, 2011

Feta, You Bettah!



what you're looking at here is the best bite ever: some english cucmber, kalamata olive, spicy sprouts, vegan feta of course, and some crumbled home-made sausage (that recipe to come!), all on some spinach. oh yeah.



This blog is moving in a different direction, to be sure. I'm ready to move on, the weight-loss--food-addict-in-recovery thing is kind of depressing and I'm still trying to figure it all out but here is a recipe for vegan feta cheese. I'm not a fan of soy, not to mention it's well-known to be a heavily GMO crop and has been linked to giving men boobies (I'm not sure how true that is, the GMO thing is enough for this lady though!) ... I really just happen to think beans are better and meatier.

After dropping all the weight, it seems senseless to waste calories on something that's going to clog my arteries, endorse animal cruelty, and take a lot more of Jillian Michaels kicking my ass, all for a few measly bites. Because that's all a portion is. : '(  Anyway, my point is: Sometimes we need cheese, and sometimes we need feta. And this recipe, my friend, could not. be easier.

I got the recipe here: Mock Feta Recipe but I took all these pretty pictures to show you how to make it so we can ignore that or if you'd like a printable version, there you go. Note my changes, please, so that I feel some semblance of importance.

HERE WE GO!








 
1/4 c. olive oil
1/2 c. vinegar (I used white rice vinegar the first time, it turned out great.)
2 T water
2 t salt
1 T dried basil
1/2 t dried oregano
1/2 t pepper
1 lb tofu, extra firm pleez, drained (I never always drain my tofu, which is to say I always never drain my tofu! Who wants moist tofu anyway? If you don't drain your tofu, then what's the point of marinating it? There's no room in the tofu for flavors and oil because you're letting it sit there, bloated ((and probably embarrassed!)), full of water. For shame!)


DON'T USE SILKEN TOFU! I repeat, please don't use it. Maybe you just know better. Maybe it was just me. But I'm pretty sure it just was gross. The first time I made this I made it with extra-firm regular tofu, and it was heavenly. I don't know the brand because I don't know tofu, but unless you're willing to risk it, stick to the firmest tofu around. Silken wasn't right, and I think it's really only good for blending anyway.

Also, the extra-firm yielded nice, sturdy, feta-y crumbles while the silken melts in your mouth in the most unpleasant way (in a salad? gross!). Anyway, mix the ingredients like a vinaigrette, crumble tofu, add crumbled tofu to vinaigrette, let the flavors marry overnight (how romantic!), and strain like you've never strained before. (I just left the bowl with the stuff straining for an hour--no water in my fake feta!)

Et bon appetit! Throw it on on a salad with some cucumbers, thinly sliced red onion, greek olives, tomato, add a little more olive oil, balsamic, and salt and pepper: Greek salad! Do you like cold pizza, healthy-vegan-choice way? Well put a dollop of spaghetti sauce on a whole wheat pita and throw some of that feta on there! Presto! There I go, being all Ned Flanders. Too bad my mustache won't grow in thick enough. D'oh!

Tuesday, November 22, 2011

Monday, November 7, 2011

BACK FROM OUTER SPACE

I've been crazy busy with the restaurant and I haven't been able to update, and I'd like to apologize to my billions of readers.

Okay, so the last time I updated was October 16th and I was -56.2lbs. Today I am -59lbs, which is FANTASTIC. Luckily, the weather here in the mid-west hasn't been that bad, I've been taking the pooch out for walks. (Every walk, I feel, could be the last one!)

Where to start???!

What I've been doing since July is take my weight every morning and write it down in a little journal I have, along with a few motivating thoughts. I have weigh-in periods that consist of about 3.5 weeks, and I note not only how much I lost in that period, but how much I lost per week. I was doing great until about the time I started this blog, in fact, it was why I started this blog. The numbers were daunting; the scale would barely move and barely move and barely move and go down a little and every once in a while it would go up. And lately I've been feeling completely unmotivated and bummed out. And then I realized I need to kick myself in the ass and go back to boot camp. No snacks! No bread! No alcohol! JUST SAY NO!

I haven't had a chance to listen to very many of them, but on one of Jillian Michaels' podcasts, she talked about something you know about if you lost or are losing weight: Plateaus. 

A plateau is a mountain that's super tall and flat on top and you can walk across it and all of the sudden you fall off of it because there's no peak and you've been walking so long across it that you've forgotten you even climbed up it and then YOU PLUMMET TO YOUR DEATH. 

In health terms, it means you couldn't move that scale if you jumped on it, and Miss Jillian believes that it doesn't exist. She says losing weight is about calories in, and calories out, and if you aren't losing weight... basically, you're not trying hard enough. Which is true. Currently, or at least up until yesterday, I wasn't trying hard enough. The most difficult thing is that you feel like you deserve to eat these things, or what harm could they do?, but in the end, for me, at least, they do physical and mental harm.


Again!!!! (I mean again, "This happened before, but I let it happen again!, Again!!!!"), I've been eating bread and sleeping in and drinking too much coffee and just letting myself skip meals and eat bigger portions. It's not like I've been eating pizza, or doughnuts! Actually, I've been an vegetarian for about a month (right now, the only animal product I consume are eggs), so you can guess that I'm not eating toooo terribly but I feel like for me, at least, it's a chain reaction. Back to bread, back to snacks; my hand reaches for things and they're in my mouth before I can even protest, back to the addicted to feeling like crap deal. And yet when I started this blog, when I had to recharge, I made the realization that I need to discipline myself in order to stay mentally healthy too.

It's weird; you know when you can tell that someone's mad at you? Even if you have no idea why, but you can just tell? Because they don't talk to you and they avoid eye contact? I do that to myself. Myself! It's just like when I was numbing myself out when I was heavy-- it happens when I don't discipline myself. (It's almost like my mind is saying to my body "If you're not going to take care of you, I'm not going to take care of you.")

So not only was I not losing weight as quickly as I could, I wasn't mentally in a good place. It's really frustrating to have done so well, to have lost this much weight, to have 10 POUNDS LEFT TO LOSE! and to still have those feelings of confusion and (sorry to sound melodramatic) hopelessness. I'm still trying to figure out how to make time for everything in life, trying to figure out what's going to motivate me to stay on top and keep me going.

Hopefully I'll be able to write more, motivate you, motivate me, et cetera. Cheers folks!


My photo
By drastically altering my SAD (standard American diet) which consisted of far too many deep-dried foods, huge portions, etc., I opted for copious amounts of vegetables, leans meats and protein, and whole grains. With moderate exercise (3-mile walks 4x/wk), and some weight training, I managed to lose 65lbs in 6 months. I am continually trying to find ways to reach out and share what I've learned along the way.